❝ You never need to apologize
for how you chose to survive.
— Clementine von Radics (via journalofanobody)
❝ 1. Do not hate them for it. They are on a journey too.
2. Understand that sometimes you will be a bandage caressing a temporary wound or you will be a pinnacle of permanency rooted deeply in their heart. Accept that you do this to people too.
3. Do not step on your feet trying to find a rhythm you are not meant to follow.
4. Do not let it harden you: continue to nurture, continue to love.
5. People use words as anchors to latch onto bits of you and when they leave remind yourself that the sea never bled itself dry because a ship left it.
6. Write the nastiest letter and burn it.
7. Yes, they may have illuminated pieces of you that you were unaware existed. But now you do and they are not the last person to remind you.
8. Dizzy yourself with everything you love, like dancing in the greenhouse to horrid pop songs or reading Haruki Murakami.
9. Set all that anger ablaze, you are wasting your time sifting through it.
10. Internalize the fact that you were still breathing before you met them.
11. Forgive them.
what to do when people leave. (via herscience)
I’m trying to forgive, though it’s still so messy in my head. What you took away from me - my art - was too fucking important. I’m trying to gain it back day by day. Other than that, I think everything can be forgiven. Even you.
You were too destructive a force to me. You ripped me into pieces and there was nothing I could do.
Now I’m just glad I’m out and that I’m standing on my own feet, though my body is shaking. I won’t be off balance again for a long while.
❝ The worst part about anything that’s self destructive is that it’s so intimate. You become so close with your addictions and illnesses that leaving them behind is like killing the part of yourself that taught you how to survive.
— L.L (via fleurthorn)
❝ You’re only given a little spark of madness. You mustn’t lose it.
The number for the National Suicide Prevention Hotline is 1-800-273-8255.
❝ I really don’t know what ‘I love you’ means.
I think it means “Don’t leave me here alone.
— Neil Gaiman (via observando)
❝ But when I look back at myself at age twenty what I remember most is being alone and lonely. I had no girlfriend to warm my body or my soul, no friends I could open up to. No clue what I should do every day, no vision for the future. For the most part, I remained hidden away, deep within myself. Sometimes I’d go a week without talking to anybody. That kind of life continued for a year. A long, long year. Whether this period was a cold winter that left valuable growth rings inside me, I can’t really say.
— Haruki Murakami - Yesterday (via taito-oct9th)
#this is me at this time#and I don't know
❝ The world isn’t against you, my dear, it just doesn’t care.
— Modern Life Is War (via chimsebeo)
Johanna Fosselius & Luisa Bianchin by Ola Rindal
Marya Hornbacher, Wasted
I don’t know why somehow smoking gives me the illusion that I’m still in control of my life, or that I’m still “normal” the way I was before this..
I think I won’t try to quit smoking, at least for a while.